Not every work should be personal

And I don't mean it in the "work for yourself" way. You could totally do that, or you could do commission, or work for someone else. It's entirely up to you, your choice.

But that's a topic for another day.

Today I wanna write about the fact that it's affecting me right now, which is letting go my artwork. 

I'm working for hire, a work that should have ended a month ago, but it is still haunting me. More specifically, a comic. I can't give details, but I can tell you, errand, that the initial spark is gone. (dead, and won't come back as a zombie)

Now my employer is asking change after change after change, and I think why? why the hell they didn't told me sooner? why in the client's™ sake would they say everything was great only to say "change it" now? and I know this doesn't happen only to me, nope, I bet every damn artist has have gone through something like this. 

While my employer pays and is nice enough, sometimes I wonder if they do know what they want, if they wonder too about the cringe their mails give me. I know it's not their fault that I get more anxious with each email, with each meeting. 

Anxiety is a freaking bastard, but it's totally and absolutely mine, and I'm learning to cope with it by myself, thank you very much, no pills for me... yet.

Now, the solution to this (even tho it sounds easy, I asure you, it's not) it's letting your work go.

But what does that mean? Letting go your artwork is the acknowledgement that it doesn't belong to you anymore, it belongs to the viewer, to the client, to the public. You have NO CONTROL over it, either once you take the decision to stop working on it, or when you don't do it for yourself from the very start.

But we get attached, 'cause it's our time,skill, and mind, investment. And that's the hard part, realising that our very honor has no weight on it, it's muted and invisible.

It's a weird feeling really, being proud of our work, only for it to be butchered by the client™.